8 days?

So now i've got 8 days until the rest of my life. Puhaha. i wonder if i'm stressed. i've been tired lately and my mind has been mush. Is this what it's like? i don't want to say i don't like studying because that would imply that all this is something i really hate, so i suppose it's more appropriate to say that all this studying is a means to an end. An end that's going to take its sweet time in coming, but an end that i genuinely would like for my own reasons.

8 days until I find out if my plans are feasible. If my entrance into dental school will be likely, a stretch, or a resounding "hell no" from the admissions committees at all the schools where i applied. i have a pretty tough year (for my time-addled mind) ahead too since i'm actually trying to graduate. Only... 7 years later than originally planned. Woe is me.. blah blah. i'm not complaining. Just... explaining.

8 days until I can breathe a sigh of relief.. or cry from remorse. i seriously can't study more than i have. Theoretically it's possible i could study more... i mean, i'm blogging right now when i could be reviewing ochem reactions or chemistry equations or biology factoids, but here i am. type type. So we are the sum of our choices and experiences and events and emotions. i am. We'll see how it goes.

In other news, there is no news! i think i've learned more biology in the last couple of weeks than i have in my entire life. Not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing. It's funny how i feel like i've gotten older and i've grown wiser, but in the end i always find that i wish i could go back and change pretty much anything and everything. Very little i can look back at and say, "Damn, i did that so well it couldn't have been done better! i win!" Never. i can rationalize why i did what i did and feel better about it, but that's mostly for my own good..... i guess i'm lucky i don't dwell on those things too much. Har har.

So i'll see you in a few days. i'll post my results because i'm open like that. Maybe.