Man, this quarter has been especially rough. A lot of mini-stresses add up to be quite troublesome. In times like these you can't help but think about what it would be like if things had been different. i don't regret my decision to move to California (if my grades pan out to at least a passing C and i eventually get money from the VA). But i can't help but think of how much money i'd have/save if i was still in GA. Plus my grades wouldn't suck as bad since i love the semester system and public university is probably a tad bit easier. All these robot kids are young and smart and actually WANT to do well. The Koreans in my analytical chemistry class don't appear to be doing that well though. Interesting....
But yeah, i guess 3 sciences was a mistake. At least.. taking this one pseudo-upper division chemistry class along with my other two was a mistake. If i wasn't already vaguely familiar with organic chemistry then i probably would be doing a lot worse in my classes. Talking about grades is boring. And depressing...
So what else is there... nothing! i'm just going to school. i guess i'll get back to why i'm glad i'm in California. i can have my sunny, green pastures on this side instead of looking wistfully over the fence especially since i know it might look tempting in Georgia.. but Cali is for me. i mean, i've been here about... 3 months now and i've already been surfing, snowboarding, and tennis'ing. i've met a large group of new people (for better or worse, yay... more facebook friends..... better AND worse). Also reconnecting with the few people that were already out here that i'd known from before. Though it's kind of amazing how little i see of certain people. Proof that you can live in Loma Linda and never see the masses of Koreans from the east cost. Also fitting into the "good and bad" category. Considering i've also been living on a quickly diminishing bank account and all the other things mentioned in the above, it's not so bad at all. i'm glad i'm out here. (And i'm not just saying that to constantly reinforce that idea into my head because it really sucks out here)
i'm definitely ready for the break though. i like learning, but my brain has become the old, tired sponge that people use to clean the counters instead of their dishes. Or maybe.. toilets? i don't want to use it as an excuse, but it's definitely tiring when you see all these young rascals tearing it up and you just stare lazily off into space thinking of the good ole days when you used to tear it up. Well, i foresee a large amount of school ahead, so i guess as long as it gets done it doesn't really matter.
i just hope LLU accepts me for the med tech program -> dent program. The clinical lab science BS program doesn't seem too difficult to get into, but you can never be too certain. i've got a fairly decent science GPA. Higher than my overall GPA, actually (stupid F in music..). But still... this means.. at LEAST 6 more years of school... Hey! That's like the amount of time i spent in the AF. So... awesome.
Ok, back to studying. Or daydreaming.
