i never thought i'd be in such a hurry to leave GA. i think i've mentioned before that coming back to GA was a dream come true... but i guess the grass is always greener. Cali is definitely browner... Lame.. i think i'll actually miss my family and friends, but i guess that can't be helped. Everytime i move anywhere i'll miss someone. The point is that i need to do what's best for me. Going to the Air Force was best (staying for as long as i did.. was not). Getting out of the Air Force was best. Now going to California is what's best (or at least that's what i hope).
It's strange because someone told me that all the Marietta guys are known for sucking. Not doing anything with their lives. It's sad to hear that for a couple reasons. First of all, the fact that people would actually say that. Second of all, it sucks because it's seemingly true. Third of all, i'm Marietta. i guess i should've taken more pictures at work in the Air Force and posted fancy pictures of me with generals and crap. i guess we're not all doctors, so whatever. It's just pretty gay that people say that kind of crap and make generalizations. i don't judge all those newbs that redo their first year at med school 2-3 times. Or those that fail to get into dent school. Or.. whatever. Live your own life.
Hmm.. rant. But i guess i'm a bit defensive because it's not really good enough to be a good guy. You can be well-rounded, but really they just want you to be making money. Sheesh, and all this stemming from a community based on acceptance and godliness. Oh, crap, re-ranting...
i guess i'm feeding the system if i do what i want to do.
i'm going to Billy Chung's to get my lump checked out. People say it's getting bigger, so i should at least get it looked at by a pro. Don't think it's a big deal, but a gigantic tumor on my head would probably be somewhat distracting.
My last Saturday at MKAY is coming up. i feel almost nothing. No sense of nostalgia crawling up at me since the last year has shown me that there's nothing left to hold on to. So sad. A bit cynical, but even with all the pictures and activities and participation... i feel nada. i guess the age gap is a bit too big for me to feel anything except relief. i mean, they're good kids, but they're not .. my kids.
So, yeah, ready to go! Haven't packed yet, but i'm still ready.
Yikes, sorry about their judgment.
ReplyDelete/judging their hypocrisy.
Not to be presumptuous, but on some level though, maybe they bring the judgment on themselves because of the disconnect between what they want to be doing and what they're actually doing? I don't know, maybe judging others is a part of life. We all do it, maybe to varying degrees...
However, I do think it can be misplaced. Especially when someone's independent and content with their lives, I mean genuinely so. But if either of those are missing, I think by the minimum standards of our society, you open yourself to judgment. For example, if you're happy but living with your parents at 30, then you're probably... (well, you know. If you're independent, but not doing what you want to do, then again, you can be judged for that...
ha.. ramble ramble... I don't even know how to finish this thought. =X