The World has Changed

i received a call today. i was told a friend of mine had died.

To call Matthew Nam a friend is general and vague enough. i had only a few opportunities to spend with him over the last few years and we did not bond and become BFF, but he was a friend. He IS a friend.

i don't like thinking about him dying because, simply, it makes me sad and i don't like being sad. And why would i be sad when it would've been quite possible to never see him again anyway?

i'm sad because i know he was a good man. i'm sad because he was (IS) accepted into LLU's dental school starting in September and it could be said rather tritely, but accurately, that "he had his whole life ahead of him". i'm sad for his friends who are experiencing sorrow and family who are experiencing grief. i'm sad because i presumed we had our entire lives to hang out at our leisure and now it's just the world without him. And me writing a blog post about something so horrible. i'm sad the world has changed.

i'd like to think that good people go to heaven after they die. i'd like to think that they go to "sleep" for the resurrection. Any other alternatives are just so sad when you can put a face to a victim. When you can look at a picture of Matthew Nam as an honestly good man, and hope that there is a good place for him. The key being hope. And so i hope Matthew Nam rests or he's floating up there with the angels, because if this world is to ever make any sense even after it's loss then there is really no other option.