I am Me

i wonder what it is that feeling of aversion to being told what to do. i guess that feeling is closely related to the "don't act like you know what i'll do" feeling. All about the "do". Like i've been in some situations lately where i try to be objective and think beyond that initial feeling of rebelling against doing what i'm told. Like ask the usual questions, "is the demand/request reasonable?", "are there any emotional considerations on the part of the individuals?", blah blah. Anyway, so i try, but sometimes i just wanna do something else!

i mean, is it being stubborn if you buck a trend because you sincerely believe in the alternative ways of doing something? i'm not saying hippies are always right or wrong, but even they've gotta be right sometimes. (save the whales, yes. pour paint on people wearing fur, no.) There will always be those that love a pair of shoes until they realize a whole lot of other people like those shoes... then they'll hate those shoes. But what if they genuinely are just "over" those shoes. Man, my analogies are really weak today (or.. everyday).

So, yeah, back to my point. Well, there is no point. i guess writing a blog while riding on a wave of frustration leads to a fairly incoherent flow... Oh well.... For example, i won't say i'm a pinnacle of achievement... (or a pile of crap, to be self-deprecating), but i'm doing what i'm doing to get to where i want to be. Sure, it's not with extreme zeal and pleasure, but who goes to school thinking like that? i'm going to school because i want to, but i'm not going to act like it's my only reason for existence. i have other things i enjoy and want to do. i don't like people sitting and thinking they "know" me when they have no idea where or how the sum of the 27 years of life experiences (gasp! old alert) have led me to where i am today. i'm not saying i'm all wizened to the world or some experienced sage, but i've been around a few slutty, mind-numbing, soul-rending blocks and so i might want to take life at a nice steady pace....

Bleh, this post is vague. There was some potential to be a nice analysis on people who hate the trend because of it being a trend, but RAGEEEEE